im so tired!

all that's going through my head today is;'two tickets to paradise".over and over and over again
damned song.maybe its was a catchy 70s hit..80s..i don't know when the hell it came out but i am trying to write a good christian rocker and every time i get to the bridge it gets ruined.i suppose i should put it on the backburner but i don't write like that.when in writing a tune.Especially hard rock tune.its hard for me to remember parts of it if i dont play them over and over and get them recorded.
but that lousy damned song keeps going though my head.stay tuned.i will let you know if i went to bed and gave up or if i killed the dragon.eddie money must die!!

also i didnt bother to go and see 4 a cross last night!
proud of me?
i think i did good!
after allthe jamming i have been doing on drums lately i feel like my arms going to fall off anyways.\and if they are not willing to fellowship by letting me play one song i am not willing to see them at all.
i no longer need them
it is sad becaus we caould have fellowshipped right onstage and done great!
.the entire meaning of fellowshipping..and its all over the bible is..ready???ok..is SINGING!
somhow they missed that one in thier studies.
if fellowsip is not playing music together what is it?
im open to hear whatever rediculouse answer they may have.

i asked some feelow christians ans they said wed let you up//come and play with us.i said im too tired from all i have been doing but if i can i will surely be there thank you.i asked them why wouldnt you allow a fellow christian to come up?
they said who is not lettin you up?
i didnt say the name.i just said a bonehaded group who have such big egoes that they are way beyond help now.
they said if you want our answer itwould be to stay clear of them..dont email them.dont ask them what they think you sound like.ignore tham completely.
do not ask them to fellowship.treat them like irate childdren who have not behaved and do your new band.and whatever you do dont get into a war with them because thats what they want.
i to,ld them i had done all of that.
they said welp theres always today to cease and change.and i have.
but i do thank johnny cirelli always for what he did for me.he is seperate from them.
that man pronbably saved my life last month,for that i shall always be gratefull.
i dont ned to like thier band to like him.
ditto.adios