new things

much has happened since i bloggegd in last
i jam with friends every other week but i cannot seem to find a band.
i am a good player.i need money but there are no working classic rock bands that seem to want me.or i have not found one yet i guess,.
its all for the money anyways.
i do have new originals out and im happy with how they have been received online.
i did a ep with one rockabilly song using sal on drums and then i wrote an r and b song for julie and put that out too.strange gal..its not half bad!
many new songs and the new cd is out too.
but i dont seem to have a direction yet.
god will use me as he seesfitbut he hasnt been telling me why or how yet and i am in a slump!
so many bad muscians out there and all the good ones wanna do is jam and not let enyone new in.so thats me.i threw out my bed so i could get my drums set up in here all the time so i have played more now.
but thats all.
i never hear from anyone not even my brother!
i went c 7 last week,.so i should feel debt releif but i do not.i still feel trapped with the car payments.no job.no girl.and when i do get friendly with a woman she seems to lose interst fast.what the hell is wrong with me i ask?
am i that bad?