the saddest day i have had in years

i am sick.sadddened and crying my eyes out.
jeff spencer died and i was told in an email from the guuitar player.i was always nagghin jeff about playing more and whwen will we play?
and he passed away.the day i went there to play he was 60..it was his birthday.i cannot take it.i just wanna close my eyes but im crying too hard to do it.